Waiting for a distant moment of return...

[Nakai Beritu]

Berith was a little unsure whether he should at least speak of what was going on for a little bit, or if he could not. He was not sure whether the other man wanted to know that there was demon blood runnign in his veins and that was what he was becoming very slowly. Every time he went to Tokyo things were a little worse and now it was really starting to manifest. How was he supposed to bring up that question without saying what he was really doing over there?

He kissed him back very softly, he was dione eating a lot before the other man but tat was because he wa sjust always so hungry... though in this case he was just trying to show that he was fine.

"...I told you.. I'm just a little bit lost... things over there.. going to Tokyo always puts me upside down and now... well, things are just a bit weird."

[Ciel De El Aram]

"Well no matter what happens I'm here for you." He hugged him tightly, enjoyign the feeling of having that man back with him, it really did matter to him beacause he was so special and he only wanted to be there with him.

"I'm... so glad that your back." He pressed a few soft kisses across hte strong jaw, wanting to give him a little attention nad not knowing if the boy would even like that.

It was really special to him to have it likethat... to just be with someone because htey were really important to him.

[Nakai Beritu]

Berith had tried his best to remain calm but it was hurtful to be hugged like that. He very carefully pushe dthe other man away, though he was in nothing trynig to hurt him by doing so. He just needed him to be careful for the time being.

"..please.. be careful.. I'm aching from everywhere..."

He smiled softly and he stood up. He was blushign because he really was sounding like a girl and that was not the most flattering thing to think for a guy like him.

"...I don't know about that... I'm not even sure what's happening...."

[Ciel De El Aram]

"You want me to give you something for the ache?" He could give him pain killers for that, it was something he was trained to do! He was a physician after all. he was trying to be as helpful as possible to the other man before he returned to the backpack he had put down and took out a new bag of Dog Food that was the best for the puppy.

"I brought some new stuff... and bowls cause I didn't think you would still... have some here..."

He didnt' know if Jun had taken everything wiht her and he was trying to be organised... as he set them down and fed the puppy and gave it some water, most likely it would be good to leave the little cutie with theother man for a few days unless he couldnt' keep him in his hourse.

[Nakai Beritu]

"Painkillers won't help at that point... Morphine and Cocaine are good to forget but it's only a very shrot term solution..."

Berith sighed deeply, knwoign that he probably did not make much sense to the other man, and thjat really was not his intention at that poitn. He had thought that if Ciel was really happy to see him after that week, and to se him as odd as he was,. then maybe that guy was trustworthy and that he did care about him for real.

"You can check it if you want... I don't think it's anything that any form of medicine could really heal..."

The Devil Marks were really growign and he was scared that it would start slowign even mroe.

[Ciel De El Aram]

"I would like to if that's alright." he was familiar with many different things because of his studies but he would need to see them to know exactly what was dealing with. He really cared about the other man, no matter what happened or if he turned into something it wouldnt' matter to him because he cared about him a great deal.

He rested a gently hand on the other man's, gesturing that they shoudl go somewhere or for him to show him either remove the shirt or whatever would be the most reasonable idea.

Though the toher man taking drugs on his own... was a little scary for the Physician to think about... he had things that were stronger then them with less addictiveness to them.

[Nakai Beritu]

Berith knew that he probably should not have said anything about that because he could hear the doctor in Ciel cringe at that, but he just.. figured that it was better to be honest. That was how he had been dealing with the pain for the last few nights and it seemed to be working pretty well up to now. Of course, he did have some dizzy spells and he was feeling a little bit weaker than normal, but still.. he was notr eally about to be addicted. Or that was what he was thinkign.

He sighed softly and he walked to the living room, closing the curtains before he sat down on the couch, his back to the other man.

He slowly took off the orange shirt, letting it rest somewhere else, and he closed his eyes. Those markings really were hurtful and sensitive. "...there..."

[Ciel De El Aram]

There was silence as he examined them and just checking them over for infection and found thankfully that they weren't before he however didnt' touch them but riffled through his work bag, pulling out a few things before sorting through them...

An ointment was pulled out and he nodded slightly, "This might sting a little but it was ease the sensativity." Before he set two other things down on hte table before hte other man. "These are stronger then the other ones and much less likely to make you dizzy. No more then two of either in a day..."

His fingers were gently placing the ointment over the marks wtih very light touches. "This will prevent infection and dull the pain."

[Nakai Beritu]

Berith growled slightly when the pills were put down on the table. He did not like to think that this guy did not trust him. Oh yeah, it was notr eally fun to be reminded that he was not really good enough to hold back to those things. He had forgotten how it stung to have someone not trusting him. Or maybe the other manw as just right but even then, was it really fair for him. Now he looked like a stupid drug addict. Just what he needed for his morning.

"...whatever."

He would not touch those pills. He would not take something he did not know where it came form. But if ti could make Ciel feel better he would jsut stand the pain alone. End fo the story.

"...be careful, damn it! It HURTS!" He really was no the edge, to say the least. His eyes were red, shimmering with anger.

[Ciel De El Aram]

"I'm just giving you an alternative, but its your decision and I do trust your judgement when it comes to what you've been taking. I was... just trying to offer something else. I trust you to know what you want to do."

He huffed softly, finishing off the treatment, before packing it back into his bag. "There done."

He didn't care about being yelled at, he had expected it a bit. "I trust you to know whats best for yourself... because I dont' understand this very much. I just don't want you to get an infection is all."

Because he didn't know if the other man knew something to treat the infections with...

[Nakai Beritu]

As angry as he had seemed just a minute ago, after a long sigh it seemed that Berith was back to normal, that he did nto ahve to worry about it anymore. The ointment had helped a little of the pain though really not much of it. What he was feeling was something that wa sinside him, nothing that had to do with the actual marks. It wa sjust the power of the demon eating him away.

"...I hope it'll go soon.. usually it never grows taht bad..."

He let himself fall fowards a little, resting on his stomach on the couch and he let out yet anther sigh. "...I didn't mean to yet.. thigsn are just a little bit crazy... I'm old enough to know what I should take or not.. it's not like it's the first time..."

[Ciel De El Aram]

"I just... worried a little..." IT was hard for a doctor to go against his training but he trusted the toehr man... he hadn't know the man's experience with the drugs and so he had been a little... scared. "I don't know your experience with them so I wasn't able to make an appropriate call. But when careful wtihthem... it is alright to use them."

If they were used in moderation...

"I believe you can do that."

He was trying his best to reasure the man that he really did believe in him... "Well... I'm always here for you."

[Nakai Beritu]

The taller man nodded slightly and he curled on his side. It was hard to try and find a comfortable position. He just knew very well that for the moment he was vetter to avoid any form of anger and soon he would be feelign better. Even though the feelings were never quite as terrible normally, he just wanted to make srue that it would not get worse and that everything would be contained once mroe.

"I'll be fine..."

He would repeat that often, but he wa ssure that he could get out of this one.. but if they kept ons ending him to that forsaken city, son he would be dead or that thing would have taken over him completely.

"...I told you.. it's not the first time.. and trust me.. I went through one overdose.. I've been really careful since then."

[Ciel De El Aram]

He really internally cringed at that, the thought almost scared him but he didn't outwardly showthat complete surprise and fear to hear that... he really cared deply about berith.

Sitting down with the pup in his arms, he was calming himself down completely as he stroked a hand down over the soft fur. "Will... you be alright to come with me to the zoo in a few days?" The date was something he ahd really looked forwards to and also wanted to just have some ttime with him together again.

"I mean..." He was sitting there... hoping that his presence didn' tannoy the other man, But he really wanted to e there with him for just a littel while.

[Nakai Beritu]

" Maybe I shouldn't have told you that..."

Berith's voice was really soft. HE knew that this wa ssomething that would make Ciel back off a little and not only because it was something that was wrong but because it wa sosmething that had affected him greatly and that he had done willingly to himself. But how was he supposed to explain that it was the only time that he could feel peaceful with his pain.

"...It's still the truth, though.. Not something I'm proud of, ut not something I can step back on... I..." He lookd away. "..I know... mustn't make you really happy though.. That I do drugs and all.."

At least he knew that it was not a good thing.

"...And I should be fine.. I just need a few days off.. usually it calms down after three or four days."